so honest with him
I like to smile because it hides my feelings inside,& I love that you can’t see what I’m really feeling or thinking because my outside covers it up,But under all that I’m dying inside&hoping I get to call you fully Mine
↓
so honest with him I like to smile because it hides my feelings inside,& I love that you can’t see what I’m really feeling or thinking because my outside covers it up,But under all that I’m dying inside&hoping I get to call you fully Mine
↓
My words It’s been over a year now I think. And still you’re on my mind. I honestly don’t know why But I know I can’t forget you and I got a feeling that I never will. Crazy How You can make me feel the way I used to feel . by just speaking to me. The time of us was great I admit and I also admit I miss it. Those conversations over the phone I can’t forget and I know I will remember often when I heard you say babe. When I heard you say you loved me. When i heard you laughing. When i heard you singing. When you’d say babe”&
when i replied you’d say”iloveyou” It felt so right. Even after you none of them compare . You can’t compare to any of them. You’re different and I love it . I guess it shouldn’t be a isurprise that I think of you when they say my “ex” or when i think of the word bf you pop into my head . You were my first babe ever. And the one i can’t forget. When we stopped talking i thought it was for the best and it,. was but then you came back again and I began to smile again and soon it became a routine. But this time around it’s different . This time i told you what I think & i said it isn’t bad that I haven’t forgot you but it’s not healthy for me to hold on to something that’s in the past and is over with. something that you’re done with too. You’d think I’d be the one to remember more but it seems like you remember details I have forgotten. Shit there’s so much to say . So much i feel to let out simply because you caused these emotions. I wanna say so much but don’t wanna seem weak. it’d be stupid to say the truth and not have it returned . Yet it all leads to you and your name. Your name is everywhere I go so no matter what I have to be thinking of you. I try and disguise this with that “cool”attitude so that you don’t see it. so that you can’t read through me and really know what I’m feeling without me telling you. I rather have you feel like idgaf intsead of really saying that I miss you and that i wish i could call you “mine” again. once more or this time for a long time. And when you’d say babe . when you’d say iloveyou when you’d say all those things that made me smile that made me believe
My words
It’s been over a year now I think. And still you’re on my mind. I honestly don’t know why But I know I can’t forget you and I got a feeling that I never will. Crazy How You can make me feel the way I used to feel . by just speaking to me. The time of us was great I admit and I also admit I miss it. Those conversations over the phone I can’t forget and I know I will remember often when I heard you say babe. When I heard you say you loved me. When i heard you laughing. When i heard you singing. When you’d say babe”&
when i replied you’d say”iloveyou” It felt so right. Even after you none of them compare . You can’t compare to any of them. You’re different and I love it . I guess it shouldn’t be a isurprise that I think of you when they say my “ex” or when i think of the word bf you pop into my head . You were my first babe ever. And the one i can’t forget. When we stopped talking i thought it was for the best and it,. was but then you came back again and I began to smile again and soon it became a routine. But this time around it’s different . This time i told you what I think & i said it isn’t bad that I haven’t forgot you but it’s not healthy for me to hold on to something that’s in the past and is over with. something that you’re done with too. You’d think I’d be the one to remember more but it seems like you remember details I have forgotten. Shit there’s so much to say . So much i feel to let out simply because you caused these emotions. I wanna say so much but don’t wanna seem weak. it’d be stupid to say the truth and not have it returned . Yet it all leads to you and your name. Your name is everywhere I go so no matter what I have to be thinking of you. I try and disguise this with that “cool”attitude so that you don’t see it. so that you can’t read through me and really know what I’m feeling without me telling you. I rather have you feel like idgaf intsead of really saying that I miss you and that i wish i could call you “mine” again. once more or this time for a long time. And when you’d say babe . when you’d say iloveyou when you’d say all those things that made me smile that made me believe
↓
“Treat me like a joke and I’ll leave you like it’s funny.”
